Gone, again

I just got back from putting Dave on the bus. I HATE the fact that we are looking at another year of this BS. I know its his job, but 22 years is enough, its time for someone else to take a turn. I'm trying so hard to not feel sorry for myself, this lifestyle is our choice after all. Its not about me, I feel so bad for Matt. He's not going to get to play football-get-you, he's not going to have his Dad at his first year of Tball, he shouldn't have to miss out on so much. Dave and Matt are so tight, it just breaks my heart that they will miss each other so much. I'm just pretty disgusted with the whole thing at this point. I don't like where he is going this time, I've never really been fearful before on a deployment but this one has me scared.