Love this...

A Leader is best
When people barely know that he exists,
Not so good when people obey and acclaim him,
Worst when they despise him.
"Fail to honor people, They fail to honor you;"
But of a good leader, who talks little,
When his work is done, his aim fulfilled,
They will all say, "We did this ourselves."
--Lao Tzu, Sixth Century B.C.;
Verse 17 of the Tao Teh Ching

What a week for the Iraqi people.

I'm really blown away by the whole thing. So happy to see this for them, makes me glad that more people will now understand that the US going in there wasn't for nothing. I couldn't say it any better that this...http://lunchbucket.blogspot.com/

I'm so much more optomistic than I was a few weeks ago. Its also means so much just because of all the friends we've had over there. I think they did good. Its going to be a bumpy road, but at least Iraq is on one. Vision is a cool thing.

Keep your panties on girls!

I just talked to Dave, he has only been on this stupid FL thing for like 3 weeks and he was telling me that out of his 40+ guys he sent 3 home yesterday because of the cheating crap their wives are pulling back here. It makes me sick. Turns out one wife was leaving the kids with friends and out having a great old time. I don't think the issue was so much that she was cheating, but that she had so little regard for her kids when she went out to do her own thing. So now SGT.X is a mess, worried his wife will take the kids and he'll be alone. Makes me sick that these women couldn't keep their pants on for a MONTH! They at least owe the guys some honesty if their marriages aren't working, nobody deserves to find our the way these guys did. Now I know there are lots of guys out there that aren't angels either, but the whole thing just makes me sad. I have to look some of these women in the face, and its going to be hard to keep my mouth shut. Maybe I shouldn't.

I know this is a subject no one likes to talk or hear about, but I am just floored at how in routine rotation like this that many marriages have gone down the tubes. Some of these guys marry so young. Its hard enough to me married with one partner in the military but to be like 22 with kids is just not good odds. I am so thankful that Dave and I were a little older when we met, and kids weren't part of the equation for a while.

Why do people have to be such assholes. If your marriage is shit then get out, THEN go fuck who ever you want and have a great time. But don't make your husband look like a fool in front of all his soldiers. These wives take the kids and move home and then the soldiers get screwed with the aftermath. Its not right.

With all that said, I miss Dave like crazy. When he called this morning he was all hot and told me about this awesome dream he had. Told me all the things he was going to do to me when he gets back... gotta love that. I can't believe we've been married almost 7 years now and I still find myself more in love with him everyday. With all the talk of all the crap in the unit it makes me feel so good to know that he is off in some dump, sitting on some m4 range and the thing he is thinking about most is ME! I'm a lucky girl. He loves me so much and is such an awesome Dad. I'll never let him go.

My life is fluffy

I love it, and I wouldn't change much. But.. alas, I am fluff.

I don't work outside the home, I don't really contribute much to society, I just kind of float along day by day doing blah stuff. I keep a nice home, I have a happy family. But what have I done? I'm only 32 so it not like I'm out of time or anything, but I feel like I need some direction. Something thats just mine all for me. I keep thinking about going back to school, but for what? I can go back to work and take any old retail job and be fine, but its just busy work. We don't really need the money although I guess it wouldn't hurt. Dave just wants me to be happy with what I do. Not like before where I worked my ass off and didn't get half the pay I deserved. I guess I'm just having kind of a mini identity crisis. I think its from being stuck in the house so much this winter.

Good Day... finally

Today was the best on in a long time. Finally we aren't sick!!

Taxes showed up in the account, and the couch we ordered is in and will be delivered on Tuesday.

Dave comes home Friday!! YEAH.

I'm just so happy to not be sick, today couldn't be bad.

Soy Milk Sucks

I saw a comedian that went on a rant about this, and he is totally right, SOY MILK BITES, and its not milk, its juice. Ick. I don't know what posessed me to by this stuff in the first place.

I haven't really gone there about why I started doing this in the first place, blog that is. I need a place to let it out, just for me. I have no intention of doing this for any drama or to hurt anyone. Its going to be all about me, rage and all, I'm not going to pretend for a second that I'm about anyone but myself here..lol. There that the standard disclaimer I've read in other idiots blogs so I guess it can work for me too. Now if anyone ever see's me start going over the edge (you know what I mean) then shoot me.

Sick of being sick

Well of course I caught the flu bug that Matt had. I've lost like 15 pounds in the last month from being sick. I'll take the weight loss, but I'm fed up with feeling so awful. Matt has missed so much school its insane.

On a good note, Dave will be home in about a week. Of all the times he's been gone this has been the worst. I hate complaining to him when he is gone too, but I've had it. We are going to really talk about him putting his retirement papers in when he returns. He will probably end up deploying one more time even if he puts it in, but at least the end will be in sight.

On a tangent... if I hear any more about the US and Iran I'm going to throw up all over again. Just what we need, more war. Idiot.

NO MORE SNOW!

Its coming down like crazy again, I guess I never have to go to the gym in the winter since I get all this great exercise shoveling. Its nuts, just when I think we are gonna catch a break another gets dropped on us. I'm so glad I bought the Escape last year so getting around isn't a problem.

Matt woke up with the flu last night. I think it was just something he ate, but he is wiped out tired today and just miserable. Nothing is worse than having a sick kid. Make me wonder how people do it with kids that have serious medical issues that are permanent. I guess you do what you have to.

SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!

I just bought my ticket to fly down and see Sarah!!! I'm sooo excited!!! I got it super cheap too. I need a weekend away, as much as Dave is gone, I deserve a treat thats all mine.

Man I'm jazzed!

I'm keeping tabs assface.

My butthead neighbor on the north side of us blew all his snow onto my sidewalk and then walked away today. Thanks asshole, like I don't have enough of my own to do. When did people turn into such jerks? Maybe its just me, but I was taught to help others and be nice, not create more work for them and then watch when they are out cleaning your mess. That neighbor is going to be an issue I can tell already. I don't even want to know them. Thank goodness the ones we have to the south of us are so cool. Army housing just pisses me off.

I'm tired and now my wrists hurt like hell from shoveling. I'm tempted to go buy our own snowblower for next year. We can get one issued to us, but the all suck and don't work right. I'd rather just buy our own and get a good one. Especially if Dave is going to be gone every damn winter like he has been the last few years. OHH and then Dave calls from Florida and tells me how cold it is... bite me.

Girls night out

Went out tonight with Jolene, Jill and Brenda. Needed it big time and it was fun. Just Applebees and shopping but it was without the kids and after a few drinks so it was nice. Everyone I know is just stretched so thin with all the guys gone, and looking to the future deployment (again) Its hard for everyone, its like being single parents while you are still married and its just a really odd feeling. I know for me its like Dave just came home from the last tour, and to already have to think about the next one.... its just too much sometimes. Its harder on him I know. He hates leaving us, and hates to think of all the growing up Matt does while he's off in some far away land doing what he needs to. Its starting to take its toll on all of us and all our friends. I am thankful though that the friends I have are so understanding and in the same boat so we can all lean on each other.

uggg

Could things get any more mundane? Its cold as hell here, Dave is gone and I'm bored to tears. Could be worse I guess. Matt and I are over the flu and healthy. Guess I should be happy with what I've got.

I've been looking at fares to NC to go see Sarah, Uber exciteamundo!!! I can't believe its been almost a year since I've seen her and the girls. Should be a fun trip. Also been trying to figure out what to do this summer over Dave's block leave. I know we'll head back to MN, but want to find something fun to do while we are there.

Bush's big thing yesterday. Watching it was kind of cool, but I am anxious to see how the next 4 years go. Its going to be bumpy I'm sure, but I don't think that it would necessarily be any better with a different CIC. Guess we'll see.

Matt was adorable today, they did a program with the day hab people and he was Capt. America. I can't believe he is so big already... where does the time go. He said when he grows up he wants to be a real superhero, game on little man!!