Whatever...

I get the feeling everytime I talk to my sister that I am boring her to tears. She doesn't have much to say and our lives are totally different. It bums me out because I'd really like to be closer with her, but it just doesn't happen. We have different views on family stuff I think. I'm a lot more comfortable with doing things with Mom and Dad, she acts like its painful and that totally pisses me off. I just don't get her most of the time and it bums me out.

Not a lot else going on here, snow and more fucking snow. On that note I am super excited to get down to NC and see Sarah this weekend. I need a change of scenery BAD. It will be good for Dave and Matt to have some alone time for once too.

Bought a new fire pit for the back yard. Its going to rock back there this year!!

Just spread your fingers out!!!

Dude, have you ever tried to put gloves on a 4 year old with sweaty hands that doesn't get what you are telling them to do?? I just did it and LOST it. Not proud, but who the fuck makes these things? Do they get some perverse thrill of knowing that moms across the world are cursing everytime they use their products? Its totally wrong that I got so mad at Matt for not understanding to spread his fingers out.. I feel like shit.

Dave bailed and didn't bother to help, didn't look for other mittens for Matt, nothing, just left to go shovel. Leaving Matt inside to cry mittenless because he wants to be with daddy. WTF? He knows I'll handle EVERYTHING so he doesn't even bother.

At least he is shoveling. I'm on fucking strike.

Oh and North Korea has Nukes.... ya think????? dumbass press.

ME!

All about me today!

I am- bored
I want- a money tree
I have- more than I deserve
I wish- I was more open
I hate- feeling lost
I miss- dreaming
I fear- getting old
I hear- Thomas music in my head
I search- for people who get it
I regret- to much to list lightly
I love- my family and true friends
I always- have things organized
I am not- daring
I dance- like MC Hammer on crack
I sing- badly and often
I cry- in the shower
I am not always- honest with myself
I write- for me
I win- at candyland
I lose- at pool and darts
I should- do more things for me
Three things I'm often complimented for: clean house, shiny hair, making others laugh
I get embarassed when: I cook, its awful
What upsets me- when people don't listen.. idiots
I keep a diary- to let off steam
I like to cook- NOT
Believe in love?- I believe its a work in progress
The prettiest person of the opposite sex you know- Josh(I'd like to know)
The weirdest person you know- me
The quietest person you know- my sister
Your closest friends- Sarah and Diana
The person who knows most about you- Sarah, Mom
Your best feature- Organization
Take a shower every day- at least one most days 2.
Think you've been in love- I know I have
Any tattoos? nope, not yet
Piercing? 1, ears and belly

When you see this name you think of....?
Ryan- cousin
Rob- cousin (Ryans brother)
Stephanie- online person
Aaron- One of Matts friends
Neville - the singer guy
Amy- friend in MN
Eve- biblical
Justin- The guy on IAF
Tatie- WTF?
Jack- Cheese

Screen Names- hildefer
Natural hair color- brown
Current hair color- brown

Favorites-
Number- 24
Color-Red
Day- payday
Month- July
Song- anything from 3 doors down
Food- Cheese
Drink- diet vanilly pepsi
Veggie-carrot
Fruit- orange
Season- Summer

Preferences-
Cuddle or make out?- whatever
Milk, dark or white chocolate- milk chocoloate
Pepsi or Coke- diet Pepsi, Regular Coke
Ketchup or mustard- ewwww yikes, neither
Beach or mountains- Plains
Cold or hot- cold

In the last 24 hours have you...?
Cried- no
Helped someone- yes
Bought something- yes
Gone to the movies- no
Gone out to dinner?- lunch and got stiffed
Written a real letter?- no
Talked to an ex?- oh hell no
Written in a journal?- what the fuck do you think this is
Had a serious talk?- no, but we should
Missed someone- Yes
Hugged someone?- Yes
Kissed someone- Yes

Who is the last person who-
Slept in your bed with you- Dave
Saw you today- Matt
Saw you cry- Matt, dude I was really sick
Spent the night in your house- Sable
You shared a drink with- Matt
You went to the movies with- Dave and Matt
Yelled at you- oh hell no...
Sent you an e-mail- Steve
Said "I love you"- Matt
Danced naked- Yes
Stalked someone- No, but shaking people appeals to me

Pick one-
Apples or bananas?- bananas
Red or blue- Red
Walmart or Target- Target
Math or English- Math
Drawing or painting- painting
Weirdest thing about you- pinky toenails
What book are you reading now?- some Barbara Delinsky trash
Favorite board game?- Monopoly
Favorite sound?- a big throaty V8
Worst feeling in the world?- the flu I had 2 weeks ago
What is the first thing you think about in the morning?- peeing
Romance or horror movie?- Comedy
How many rings before you answer?- 2
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?- Does Dave count?
If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?- Some big decorating home improvment guru, like Norm on TOH
What was the last food that you ate?- Cream of Brocoli Soup
Last movie you saw in a theater?- Shreck 2

and so it begins....

Dave didn't do shit today but yet he is totally a blob and in bed. Its 10:30 and he doesn't have to work tomorrow. Man, my life is one ball of excitement. I usually blow it off when he is like this because I figure he is just worn down from work. Not this time, he doesn't have any work to be stressed over. Just pisses me off that he is so bored that he just is a bump on a log, he's rather hide upstairs in bed watching basketball than hang out with me. Boy, I feel wanted. He better have some oomph tomorrow or I'll lose it on his ass. Honeymoon is over again. Why does he look at me like I'm from another planet half the time? He just looks at me like I should shut up and he doesn't give a shit what I'm talking about. It makes me nuts because I feel like he doesn't care what I have to say. Guess I've just done my own therapy. Maybe he doesn't care. Go figure...

Oh and give me the remote!!!

Superbowl Sunday

Dave is home, we still are healthy, life is very, very good.

Now on to my bitch of the day.... to you Vikings office. If you trade Randy Moss it will be really hard for me to justify being a fan much longer. I don't know who the hell thinks this is a good idea, but they should be fired. Randy is a core member of the team and you'll suffer horrible losses should he leave. Don't make me become a GB Packers fan... please.

Its like 40 degrees out, figures, I shovel my ass off and then Dave comes home and he gets nothin. It will be back, he WILL shovel.

Went to church this morning, I hadn't gone in a while and I needed it. It helps me refocus, I feel kind of back on track now.

Off to make dip and get lit watching the game.... hehe.

So far so good.

So far we have avoided sickness since last time!! I think its a new record. Well, now that I probably jinxed it we'll see how I feel tomorrow.

Dave is on his way home, he called and said they are in NC so they should be back at noon as planned. He's tired and ready for his own bed again. I feel for him, being gone sucks, but then so does being alone here at home too.

Nothing too exciting today. I typed Grandma Helseth a really nice long letter. I miss her and wish I was there to help her out while she is hurting so bad. I have a hard time calling her lately. I feel bad that I don't much anymore, but I can't stand to hear how bad she is getting. I hate thinking that getting old is like that. I guess its time for me to face the fact that aging isn't so kind. I'm only 32 and it absolutely scares me to death to be like her at that age. She hurts so much physically, and then is alone so much on top of it. I really didn't think we'd have her around long after we lost Grandpa. Thats horrible to say, but they were that kind of couple. Married over 50 years and looked as in love as the day they tied the knot. I remember sitting in the hospital when we were losing him and it looked like she was dying inside too. She's never been the same. Thank God Mom is there to help her and take her to appointments and stuff. Pisses me off that the other Aunts and Uncles don't do a fucking thing, but that shouldn't surprise me. They are all about themselves. I hope it comes back and haunts them when they get old, and their own kids disown them. HA! Asshats.

Back to cleaning before Dave gets home... fun, fun, fun.

Someone Smack Me!

I have been the laziest loser ever. I swear January came and went with me on the couch. Now granted I was sick a good chunk of the month, but even so, I've never been so lazy in my whole life. I need this trip to NC, a change is going to do me some good.

Got the new couch today! It looks great, I can't believe we waited this long to get the thing. Now it really feels like the living room is done and I can move on to work on the rest of the house. Or... I could just sit on it and wait for another month to pass..

Dave comes home Friday, I'm so glad. I missed him this time (ok well I miss him everytime, but this time was different somehow)

OH and I got the new cooler and shopped for a jacket for SB!! Bring it on!!