Someone stop me!

I'm dying to go out and do some retail therapy.. NO NO NO. I have the urge to redo the whole damn house, but I have vowed to save money this time while Dave is gone. I really need to do better.

I'm so bored already that I'm writing a list of projects to do... make daddy pillow for Matt, change out the duvet in my room. Just lots of little stuff to make the time go faster. Man, its going to be a long year...

I did hear from Dave, he is in country and waiting to go downrange. He hasn't called and all I've gotten is short emails, but thats ok. I know he's busy, just as long as I know he's safe thats good enough for me.

Gone, again

I just got back from putting Dave on the bus. I HATE the fact that we are looking at another year of this BS. I know its his job, but 22 years is enough, its time for someone else to take a turn. I'm trying so hard to not feel sorry for myself, this lifestyle is our choice after all. Its not about me, I feel so bad for Matt. He's not going to get to play football-get-you, he's not going to have his Dad at his first year of Tball, he shouldn't have to miss out on so much. Dave and Matt are so tight, it just breaks my heart that they will miss each other so much. I'm just pretty disgusted with the whole thing at this point. I don't like where he is going this time, I've never really been fearful before on a deployment but this one has me scared.